Doors Close and Open

Over the last year I've had so many doors open and close in my life. I graduated from college (Goooo Dayton Flyers), had the greatest internship in the universe (Go Reds!), moved...a few times, and left jobs and relationships (romantic and otherwise).

Sometimes doors are little doggie doors, the flaps that whoosh and you don't really notice. Other times doors are huge and elaborate, and they take a lot of effort to close. Today I closed on of those huge doors in my life. All the stress that came with it brought on a migraine, a bad mood, and a lot of negative energy. I must admit, that was my first migraine in about 3 months, and the last one had to do with that door as well. This door needed to be closed because the door (that's what we'll call her) tried with all her might to control most aspects of my life from how I organized my own room to how I spent my precious free time. I always felt guilty about something and avoided the house as much as possible. I'm a very free spirit, so you can see how this would be a very negative experience for me. After spending two weeks away in Phoenix (21 hours away if you don't stop driving, ever) it was decided that I needed to move out...good call since it was so convenient. Today was the trip to St. Louis to gather all of my stuff that was poorly packed and sent to my Aunt's house for keeping until I returned to the midwest.

So, upon returning home with the half of my stuff that was left in St. Louis I was left with a mass of insanity. So with all that negative stuff how was the door closing positive to me? Well, now that the door is closed I get to clean up and organize my life in the comfort of my home. I have the support of my incredible parents, my amazing sister, and my loving dogs. Just by hanging up my cloths (finally from the move back from Phoenix) and throwing out a few things I feel so much better. I was on the phone and cracked up because Joe said "you're doing all of this unpacking just to pack it all up again." It's true, a door always opens when a door closes. I do plan to make the cross country trek back to Phoenix in the near future. 

With my hugh negative door closed, now I can open up a new huge door of opportunity and happiness. I am really looking forward to actually doing something for myself. Here's to closing doors on the negative, and opening doors on the positive. Don't let anyone dictate how you spend your life. 

"I've got my life, and it's my only one" - Kanye West